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Behind Blue Eyes

"I love you, brother," Loki said sternly. His gaze seemingly endless until he broke the stare with himself in the mirror. His new look a much more naive and nervous one with his newly blushed cheeks.

He sighed as he prepared to repeat his dialogue to himself in the mirror. Each time convincing himself to be more believable. But to no avail. His radio being his only company with him and his reflection began playing a sad tune that obtained Loki's attention. He raised the volume and listened carefully.

"No one knows what it's like... to be the bad man... to be the sad man... behind blue eyes..."

Tears began to run down Loki's face and his expression changed to rigid one of angst. He grabbed the radio and hugged it as he slide down against the wall with his back. As he sat down, knees bent in front of him with the radio still being bros tightly in his grasp, he sank his face in his chest letting himself feel weak. The song continued playing:

"And no one knows what it's like... to be hated... to be fated... to telling only lies..."

Loki's chest tightened as the lyrics rang truer and truer to his thoughts and heart. He couldn't bear the things he had done to his brother. To telling him he hated him and his family. To manipulating everyone who ever came near him. The tears had stopped but the pain hadn't ceased.

"But my dreams, they aren't as empty ... As my conscience seems to be... I have hours, only lonely... My love is vengenance... That's never free..."

Loki bit down on his bottom lip, suffering from the piercing feeling coming from his chest. Pain, pain, pain! His love that would always bring pain and always be unrequited. His poor self that would always be isolated. He only wanted to be with his brother. His brother... that could never love him back for it was taboo. Even if they weren't related, same gender love was frowned upon.

"No one knows what it's like... to feel these feelings... like I do... And I blame you! No one bites back as hard... on their anger... None of my pain and woe... can show through..."

Loki cringed as he began to come to his senses and realize he was being unreasonable. His disgusting feelings for his brother could never be reality. He stood up and placed his radio back and began to attempt his morning routine normally. The chorus began once more and Loki narrowed his eyes at his reflection as it continued:

"No one knows what it's like... to be mistreated... to be defeated... behind blue eyes..."

Loki's eyes began to water but he resisted and began brushing his teeth. His thoughts wandering toward his brother's friends and his father. His eyes softened as he continued to think.

"No one knows how to say... That they're sorry... and don't worry... I'm not telling lies..."

Loki couldn't look himself in the mirror any longer. His strong act could only last so long as the guilt started set in. The final verse played, loud and clear, in the silence of the room.

"No one knows what it's like... to be bad man... to be the sad man... behind blue eyes..."

Loki snapped. He couldn't handle the pressure of himself any longer. He went to open the door only to see it had already been opened partial way. In it's opening stood Thor with flowers in his hand and remorse look with dried tears patted on.

"Br-brother!" Loki shocked to see Thor in front of him; nonetheless in his room!

Thor shot him a look of guilt and something unknown to Loki. He grabbed his little brother by the shoulders and pulled him up to a tight, breathless kiss. Loki couldn't push away; no! He didn't want to push him away. He wanted this hallucination to never end. Thor released him.

"Is this some kind of sadistic torture from within myself?" Loki muttered staring at the Thor in the eyes. Thor had no time to react as Loki then pulled him down for another kiss. This time more passionate and hesitant than the one before.

" Ha- I love you, brother" Loki said with all his sincerity.

Thor shocked at first then smiled. Loki felt his blood rush at the sight of such a realistic illusion. His face now covered in red blush from the joy he felt.

"What a beautiful apparition" Loki said gently touching Thor's slightly flushed face.
Thor having realized his brother thought this was a figment of his imagination took hold of Loki's hand and brought it to his lips and kissed it. He then lowered his head to Loki's ear, breathing on his neck whispered.

" I'm no fake, dear brother. And I love thee as well."

Loki choked on his breath and became tense. Thor went back to his straight position and laughed at the cute expression on Loki's face.

"Might I also add, dear brother, that I know you might oppose any feelings for me because of our relation to each other; however, I'm compelled to let you know you are adopted..."
Loki was never more shocked before even with the day's occurrences. Thor then bent down on one knee and held the flowers in both hands up with his face towards the ground.

"Will you accept my feelings?"

"I-i-i- !"

"I saw your entire breakdown and confession to the mirror..." Thor was shaking in anticipation. " I ascertain of my feelings for you and I wish to be with you. You no longer have to be the bad man, the sad man..."

Thor then looked up at Loki for his answer from his final words.

"... Behind those beautiful blue eyes of yours."

Loki broke down. His smile took the place of his frown from before. His bitter tears now sweet from happiness. He took hold of Thor's hands and flowers and lifted him up from his knee. He broke apart his arms from the clasp and threw himself on Thor's chest and wrapped him arms around him. Thor shed one tear and embraced Loki back.

"You will no longer be hated. You're not fated to tell lies. You are my truth. You are my dream and I can only hope to be yours. You will no longer be lonely if you wish to spend your hours on me. I can only hope to never make you feel pain or sadness. I'll pay your price. Share with me your feelings. Blame me, I shall welcome it. Don't hesitate. Don't restrain yourself. I want to see everyone of your faces and fix their expressions to be your lovely smile. I promise never to mistreat you. I am the one defeated by you and no one else. I will say sorry when I do wrong. I won't say don't worry because I will never let you. I love my dear br-lover"

Thor raised Loki's chin so that he may see Loki's face.

"I love you, Loki"

Thor then kissed him as Loki continued to shed tears. They, both, with looks of content.

The End?
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NyxEphriham Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:O HOLY CRAP. I came looking for smut but found something sweeter. The song was perfect and so was this fanfic! Nicely done! I nearly cried when I read this.
KIRA-S-W-A-G Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much! Reading this makes my day!
NyxEphriham Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No prob ^^
forestgirl99 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
one: freaking awesome and so sweet
two: i freaking love Limp Bizkit Behind blue eyes (it sorta describes me)
KIRA-S-W-A-G Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Student General Artist
haha glad you liked it
forestgirl99 Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i didn't like it i LOVED IT
erinmh1 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Wats the name of this song??? I NEED 2 KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!! :3
KIRA-S-W-A-G Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013  Student General Artist
Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit
erinmh1 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I thought it was "The Who"?
KIRA-S-W-A-G Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2013  Student General Artist
Maybe they did a cover or Limp Bizkit did a cover... sorry idk. I got that song from Limp Bizkit tho. Sorry not much help
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